Jessica Wilkins is an artist, graduate student and director of UNCG's Art Truck. She is co-producing The Body Project and is creating new work through the lens of the humor YELLOW BILE. See Jess tap into her Bile Side on Storyhound's facebook page here.
I had really been looking forward to the night of the Humor drawing at Greensboro Project Space back in November. I knew I wanted to participate with this very alive and diverse group of artists to discover unknown parts of our group and of myself.
I picked Yellow Bile as my fantastic humor and along with our other members we began to learn about our destructive, vengeful, hot-tempered, ambitious, daring, imaginative and confident leader selves! Letting the words sink in and not getting to heady about it all…we explored the untreated onion, lemon, cabbage, pasta, eggplant and cucumber with touch and action. I unboxed the pasta and broke fist fulls of the long rods onto the cement floor, smashing and thrashing, stomping and breaking… I was on my way to some Yellow Bile destruction!
Permission given and I took it! I tore away at cabbages and squeezed lemons with gritted teeth. It felt so good to be angry and physical while also knowing I was exploring and testing with the safety of the group.
For a long time I’d felt guilty at the temper tantrums I had as a kid and saw my Grandmother’s rage as something I didn’t want to have any part of. I’ve come to find a place for rage and anger. Not needing them to stay too long,,..and yet allowing them to be a part of me. This exploration helped me to playfully choose to embody rage and anger, an exercise, a freedom.
And at this moment in time, as a first year graduate student within UNCG’s art department, I am interested in other aspects of the fantastic yellow bile; I am interested in the ambitious, the daring, the imaginative and confident qualities that are needed to see me through this Making process. The Body Project offers an opportunity to use play and inquiry when collaborating with a fellow Body Project participant and writer (I have teamed up with writer Susan Kirby-Smith). I think our teamwork will help keep me accountable and surprised as I learn to trust my self as an artist.